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2020.08.02 03:45 LLMOONJ Stoxart
Sharing stock charts in a creative kind of way. I want to accomplish a story more than a pretty picture. All of my artwork will have hidden messages and symbolic elements that are true and essential to the company. In addition, I also add personal elements that are true and authentic to me. The moon is a symbolic element representing my daughter. Her middle name is Luna and she is the moon of my life. There’s a “bird” that is always flying near the moon. If you zoom, it’s my signature :)
2023.06.08 13:43 forestfairysparkle Pet died, I (21F) got badly injured, none of my buddies care- I’m being ignored by buddies during my grief & pain, I feel so so heartbroken
TLDR: my pet Sandy & Spider man died, i fell on rocks & now badly injured/in horrid pain. Buddies are aware I’m grieving and in pain, yet nobody cared to message me/check on my well-being. Got scammed by customers, unable to buy meds for my awful injury & needs for the funeral…Asked FB for some help, only got 1 care reaction from a buddy attending the funeral & that’s it. The buddy who reacted to it didn’t even send me a text. Nobody, and I mean no one has messaged me or called me during this very sad, painful time. I had people ask for rides to the funeral & back to their home, yet they don’t wish to contribute given this incredibly trying time for me….I feel so unappreciated, taken advantage of, and depressed. My heart is shattered in pieces.
Recently my pet Sandy (tarantula) & Spider Man (tarantula) died, it’s been such a heartbreaking loss for me…I have been so, so depressed over my little boy & little girl passing away. Right after sandy & spider man died, I fell on rocks in the dark and I’ve been badly injured ever since.
My right leg has been giving me horrid pain, to the point I can’t properly move, sleep or walk. I haven’t slept in days due to this pain, my injury has nearly been a week now & this awful pain hasn’t gone away. I have chronic IBS, so the hard fall has made my condition’s pain even worse. My buddies are aware of this.
Now, here’s the part where my buddies come along…They’re aware this is going on with me, yet nobody has cared to reach out. Nobody has sent me a simple text checking on my well-being during this very sad & painful time. Nobody has cared enough to ask me if I need help with Sandy & Spider mans funeral. They’ve asked for me to give them car rides to the funeral & then back to their place, yet they haven’t considered contributing one bit towards the funeral. My buddies are not struggling, they all hold very good jobs, so it’s not like they’re unable to contribute.
Considering this very sad, painful, trying time- I reached out for help on Facebook for the very first time. I told my buddies the honest truth, that after the hard fall I’ve been in unbearable pain & I’m unable to properly move or sleep. I am grieving heavily while in awful physical pain. I had customers scam me (I own a small business) & I relied on the money from those sales, for my medication & the funeral coming up….so now I’m unable to buy my medication for this horrid injury & needs for the funeral.
I said in a polite, professional way if different buddies buy at least 1 item, it’ll be able to buy my medication for my awful pain & the funeral needs… I had 1 person that’s attending the funeral give the post a care reaction, and that was it. Everyone else completely ignored it. The person attending the funeral who gave a care reaction, didn’t even reach out to me. I am being completely ignored during my pain & grief.
I’ve been incredibly kind to all of these people who I consider buddies, I’ve gladly fed them at bars many times when they asked me for food, I’ve been a great protector for all in unsafe environments in our town…Yet here I am, being completely unappreciated & constantly taken advantage of. My heart is shattered in pieces.
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2023.06.08 13:43 wawooty driving myself crazy over my (22F) boyfriend’s (20M) instagram habits prior to our relationship
i feel pathetic and insecure even writing this, but it’s plaguing my mind to the point that i’m terrified it’s gonna ruin the relationship i have.
i started dating this boy about two months ago, after a 3-4 month long casual relationship consisting of hookups that gradually became more romantic and less casual each meet up. at first this guy was totally non-affectionate with me, and i could tell he was backing off emotionally to the point where i was constantly frustrated and unable to gage whether he even liked me more than for my body. since then he has completely turned around, he feels really bad for his prior emotional unavailability and has expressed a large amount of desire, affection, and care for me, to the point where i’d feel silly even questioning his feelings for me. i like him more than i’ve ever liked someone before, and it’s by far the most healthy and real “adult” relationship i’ve ever engaged in. fast forward a few months, we genuinely are so comfortable, happy, and invested in eachother, and he’s very good to me and never shows signs of interest in anyone other than me.
however, like a lot of young women, i find myself driving myself insane with comparison at least once a day. for context, the first week we met eachother, two of my (very attractive) friends reached out to me, saying he had followed their accounts and wondering why. when i questioned him about this, he just said he’s trying to build his following. at the time we weren’t too involved so i’ve let this slide. a month or two later, he unfollowed them both, in addition to a few others.
however, a few events since (talking to my girl friends about male behaviors or simply spending too much time on social media) led me to dig too deeply into his past social media habits and his following. through this, i found somewhere near 100 girls that he’s seemingly thirst followed, many of them not even following him back. none of these occurred during our relationship, but several of them were accounts he’s left comments or likes on up until march, when our relationship became real. i consider myself to be very secure in my looks and identity, but since making this discovery it’s caused me to question this heavily. i find myself looking down on my looks 10x more, wondering why he even would feel compelled to settle for me; i’m not nearly as stylish, fun, rich, creative, flirty, or sometimes as conventionally beautiful as the girls he’s been flirting with. i’ve never been the type to leave comments or even really flirt with others excluding the one person i’m interested in, and seeing that he had been even past the point of our first hookup has sent me into a spiral that leaves me feeling physically sick. as a result, i feel incredibly guilty. he hasn’t cheated at all, nor has he shown even the slightest bit of interest in anyone other than me since we’ve started dating. he reaffirms me often to express his attraction to me. at least once a day i find myself angry at him without him even knowing it.
i know it can’t possibly be healthy for me to feel this way, but sometimes i wish he didn’t come off as desperately to others as he did before we were dating. i wish so much i just never looked through his following, and i feel almost addicted to it now.
how do i go about this so that i can feel better? it’s important to me that i avoid resenting him, because i truly feel like i love him and we’re right for eachother. am i valid in feeling like he doesn’t see me as an ideal girl in his eyes?
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2023.06.08 13:39 acer000 26 [F4M] Soooo much love to give 🤍
I'm F(26), living somewhere near Davao, been single since God knows when (2018 actually). Had flirted a LOT but always ends up with friendzoned or talking stage lvl only. Sometimes I ask myself maybe there's smth wrong with me and the way I handle things, or maybe I'm looking in the wrong place, or maybe the right guy for me isn't born yet chos. But seriously, I miss dating and I can't even remember how it feels like to be in a relationship anymore. I've been so independent for too long but I'm still not used to it. I have no exes baggage and I'd say I'm emotionally available as well, I hope same goes with the future guy I would be with. Maybe someone here wants to give it a shot, or you may refer someone you know to me. I'd like in-person dating not online, so preferably someone nearby. 🤍
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2023.06.08 13:37 No-Struggle-8971 Transport: Lara Beach to Old Town, Duden waterfalls
I am staying at a resort in Lara Beach for the week, near the Mall of Anatolia. I am looking to travel with my wife and 1 year old to Old Town and both upper and lower duden waterfalls.
The taxi stand nearest to my resort has prices of €60 return to Old Town and €70 return to Duden waterfalls. These seem like rip off tourist prices. No way I am paying that much!
Can you recommend me other options to travel to these locations? I spoke to a shop keeper in the mall, he suggested bus stop D to Old Town is cheapest option and I can pay contactless. Can someone guide me and give other recommendations?.
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2023.06.08 13:37 restlessllama I almost ran a red light!
I know I'm pretty burnt out right now. Last night I basically grunted at my husband and still made him make dinner after I came home from work to discover he had an online DnD session. He had looked after dear daughter all day - so of course he's entitled to time off too but then he said he let her have a four hour nap and she doesn't go to bed early at the best of times (nearly 3 and a night owl so usually about 8. She didn't go to sleep till 11pm last night). Fwiw the dishes are still sitting on the side.
Luckily said night-owl toddler slept in till 0930 this morning. That did however mean a manic rush to get out for our 1030 playgroup. After that we go to the aquarium (annual pass) so I was driving there and went through a junction before suddenly seeing the red light and the traffic coming from the side street and emergency stopping. I didn't pass the lights but was past the line and the bike lines.
Obviously no one got hurt and I caught it in time but I ran a red light. The fear that hit me when I realised, the chest tightness, heart racing fear was intense. I don't know how it happened. I don't know how I just didn't register the lights or that they were red. The lapse in concentration scares me so much. I just needed to get it out. I don't even know how to rectify it. My husband and daughter are going camping this weekend because I have night shifts - it stops her from waking me up whilst I'm sleeping in the day so whilst that's a nice solo rest it's still not really cause work is heavy on nights (my nights are currently spent being a labour and delivery anaesthetist so epidurals and C sections most of the night).
I guess I just needed to tell someone. Anyone. Emotionally I've felt lower than this before. I've had worse anxiety than this before. So why did I have such a huge concentration lapse?
Thank you for listening.
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2023.06.08 13:36 gskamsbsbsha Nightmare holiday with partners family
I need to add context before I talk about the nightmare holiday. It's a long one because without it, it just kinda won't make sense. I probabaly wouldve got this off my chest ages ago but the sheer ammount of story telling seemed draining as talking about it makes me feel deflated and sad. It always pops up in my head though, think i just need to get it out
I have just turned 24 and my partner is 23, we have a 3yo together. I have ADHD and was only just diagnosed in January this year. I've been thought of as autistic too by counselors and as I've gotten older and more self aware, it's quite obvious that I am. I don't want a diagnosis for this though as it wouldn't change anything but add limitations due to the stigma and misconceptions surrounding it.
Im a stay at home mum and have been since i finished college at 21. Haveing a child has made symptoms more obvious and I heavily struggle with washing and putting clothes away due to sensory issues and with prioritising tasks, motivation etc Sometimes I can get overhwelemed by the sheer ammount of things to do that I shut down and fall behind. From the outside it can be perceived as laziness, to me I am battling myself and trying my hardest to get through each day. I also have complex ptsd and comes with that is permenant 24.7 depersonilsation which is its own hell, this makes me disconnected and feel dream like. Add on the over stimulation from lights, sounds, socialising etc this gets so bad that I can struggled getting around shopping centres. My brain turns to complete mush. All my issues and this made college HELL for me, I struggled so much and nearly got kicked out multiple times for each college due to awful attendance and falling behind severely. Idk how but I managed to walk away with 2 level 3 qualifications and a level 2. Working would be extremely difficult for me, when lo starts nursery in September I will look for a job but something that is part time and allows me to recuperate.
My partners never helped me, even during lockdown and paternity leave (4m off, lo was a newborn) I was healing from pregnancy (3rd degree stitches inside) and juggling a whole house (moved in 1 day before birth) and baby whilst he played his games everyday till 6am, wakeing up 1pm. I was so sleep deprived I was hallucaitng. He did nappies, I'd have to plead for him to clean a single dish or put his dish in the kitchen, put his wrappers in the bin and not stacking them up next to it, pissing on the floor in toilet. No matter how hard I begged and pleaded for help, he'd stonewall me. Laugh at me with his gamer friends on mic, tell his family I'm physco etc. 0 affection, only when he wants sex. Never a kiss, a touch, nothing.
When he started work, this became set in stone though. These things were no longer arguable, it was my job now. I communicated all the issues with my partner and his gameing addiction to mil because she kept saying that I was being controlling of lo and not allowing my partner the chance to bond, this pissed me off ALOT as I was begging him.. crying at him for help. Anyways as he started work and lo got older, things didn't exactly change but just became the norm. Mil would always bother the shit out of me with unsolicitled advice.. i'm breastfeeding for too long, makeing lo clingy, lo doesn't see her enough despite getting to see her 2x to 3x a week due to being down the road from us, I'm a mean mum for not giveing lo chocolate, I'm lean for not wanting people to smoke near her. Everything I want for my child was somehow me targeting her and stopping her from being a nana. His family members thought that I was controlling of lo because I don't allow mil the chance to bond with her due to no sleepover yet, that i don't allow lo over enough. I didn't give lo bottles to lo? I'm refusing mil the chance to bond. I'm refusing partner the chance to bond too despite makeing bottles for him and him only to give to lo, but him refusing because he's busy. Lo would only sleep if I put her to bed? Apparantly this is my fault, I made her too clingy and gave no one else the chance to do it despite begging partner to and him refusing.
I have openly called partner mentally and fincanially abusive and opened up about it due to the unfair judgments and comments I was receiving. Apparantly the issue lied with MY inability to communicate. (In the holiday my adhd and autism will be used as a means to gaslight in to thinking I'm the bad commutator, despite him being the one that refuses to even achlowledge me) they would always find every excuse under the sun to justify his behaviour because he's their perfect boy, the youngest.
Lo is now 3yo, she goes round to mils every Sunday unless somethings on that day. She still hasn't slept over but I don't see the need for it yet. I've brought up issues with her and stand my ground. Things are more settled, partner still does fuk all in the house but we've found more of a balance. He plays with lo more now and I got to out for the first time to see my friends and go out clubbing, she stayed with him for the whole night and was the first time she went down without me there. (This wasn't always my choice tho)
Mil has pissed me right off, many times.but she has done a lot for us, drove me many times to see my family who are further away. Helped me get back and fourth when my grandad was dying, payed for things for us, got us shopping, drove me shopping etc. I stayed with partner at mil and fils house, I'd catch the college bus from there. And his family are also nice, I just think I've been painted quite negativley which they've gone off. She's not all bad.
It's a large building in the countryside, 12 rooms which fit the 23 people going (7 were kids) it was mil, fil, partners 2 brothers and their partners, mils dad and mum, her brother and his gf, mils 2 sisters and their partners, and 1 of their kids who is a teenager brought their partner. As u come in to the building there's a pub which we stocked so as the day time was comeing to end and kids went to bed, drinking started. I had a drink the first night, didn't the 2nd.
Things were great for the first 2 days. Come the 3rd day and shit went down, it was the day I found out everyones true feelings about me, I've never felt so gaslight and bullied in my entire life (even despite being heavily bullied in school and abused at home).
It was about 9pm & we were all quite drunk at this point. I was less as I stayed sober until lo went to bed which was a lot later than the other kids. Partner doesn't drink so he was stone cold sober. We had to keep going up and checking I lo was alright as we didn't have a monitor and we were on the top floor near lots of stairs.
We were doing kareoke and I was really happy and relaxed. As I walked past partner who was playing darts with his brother (1) (who I need to add, has no kids and is 26 still living with mil) he called me over and told me to go check lo. idk what come over me but I said, no I've done every night of every day of her life. Let me have a break for once. (I have only seen my friends twice in 4yrs due to him being insecure, arguing against me leaving lo etc. Drinking is rare for me so I just wanted to relax and switch off just a bit) Partner didn't say anything, the brother turned round and said "no, I'm sorry but I don't agree with that" I say "what do u mean?" He goes "he works, he gives u a roof over ur head, food on the table. He works everyday to provide for u and lo and what do u bring to the table?" I just stood there for a moment processing what he justt implied and already feeling drained by the idea of if I go "I'm grew and raised lo, i maintain and house and have basicly sacrificed and given up everything to do it" he responds with "so u don't bring anything then? Because u don't do the washing, u never clean the house and being a sahm is a walk in the park to doing his job everyday" I stood there and just walked away.
I went to the bar and sat on the stool, I just felt really hurt especially as my partner just listened and nodded in agreement to everything. Psrtners brother (2) was makeing drinks (he has a 2m old). Mils brothers gf was sat on the stool next to me. I basicly just started crying, I couldnt hold it. I was just sad af. I basiy repeated what brother (1) had said and tried justifying myself and explaining why he's wrong and that despite falling behind on things at times I truly try. It's not fair to say I don't bring anything to the table when I could use the same logic and say be doesn't bring much to the table as a dad, bringing in money doesn't add more value to him and less to me. And was just saying it's always me who is made out to be unappreciative of him, when all I've done is show appreciation whilst he never has and has verbally told me he doesn't. They weren't mean they were trying to stay neutral and not add fuel to the fire which was fine.
Brother (1) gf comes over to see what's going on. I repeat everything i told them and everything else to her. She goes "no no no, I'm gonna stop you right there. I havnt talked to you much and only hear what's going on from other people, I'm gonna tell you straight what I think" She is shouting all of this at me quite aggressively. Me: "okay" im a little confused tho Her: "No. Don't speak, let me finish" Me: "okay" Her: repeats what b1 was saying "WHAT DO U BRING TO THE TABLE, UR ALWAYS COMPLANING ABOUT HIM BUT U DO FUK ALL" Me: "But thats not fair -" Her: "NO LET ME SPEAK, NO, NO,NO" Me: "but what ur saying isn't fair" Her: repeats everything b1 said to me Me: still trying to speak but she keeps saying no over me and saying shut up. Mils brothers gf starts saying to the gf, let her speak (eventually she and everyone listening will tell me that it was me who wouldn't let her speak and was aggressive first) Me: I start raising my voice to try and over power hers in hopes of her hearing me and letting me defend myself. I'm trying to say the same things I said before and hseing the same logic but turned round on partner to try and get them to relise how unfair what they were saying to me was.
Mil comes STORMING in from the other room and starts screaming at me to shut and telling me that I always talk badly about her son when ive had a drink (that's not true. The last time I spoke about him was because he stormed off and ran away from the house because he thought I said something sexual to his brother in a group convo about shoes 🥴. Another time was when one of aunties ASKED me and tried getting gossip out of me. Its not even negative but the truth) Fil comes in and starts on me, partner comes and says I agree with what's being said but u all need to calm down. I'm basicly crying my eyes out and they all keep it going, I'm now repeating that I didn't start it I just felt hurt about what b(1) said to me. Mil hears what he said to me and agrees to, saying u don't appreciate partner.
Eventually she goes and things die down, I'm still really upset. I go outside to vape and get some fresh air, b(1) comes out to talk and said he was out of order but that I don't do enough at home. I ipen up about my struggles with adhd and autism and how what seems nothing to them, is harder for me. I'm trying my hardest and the house isn't even messy at all, its fine I just struggle with washing. We basicly end up chatting about random stuff after and yh.
I go back in and I try talk to b(1) gf who I see is playing pool with the uncles gf. I say can we squash it, play pool with you and be friends? she kicks off and says no, I don't like you and I don't agree with you etc. She starts shouting again, really load. I snap and say FUK YOU Mil STORMS in worse than before and pushes her body against mine, I'm taller so she raised her head and pushes it close to mine. I can feel her breath, she points her finger to me and screams about how I woke her dad up with MY screaming (it wasn't me it was b(1) gf and she knew this) she is still going and I just stare her dead in the eye, my breathing is calm and I didn't move an inch. I was abused physically, mentally and emotionally at home so I started to withdraw. Apparantly everyome thinks I'm being aggressive towards mil now but I'm not reacting. Partner had the audacity to grab me and try and pull ME away from her, I try yanking myself away and say get off me, I've literally done fuk all this whole night and then u pull me away as if im the one being aggressive and instigating?
I go back outside to vape and listen to music because im just sad af at the point, i hide on a bench where it's pitch black and zone out staring at the views and the lights from the towns in the distance. I start getting yelled at, called a wanker, an attention seeker etc. I eventually come in at this point, if anyone spoke to me I'd just ball it. Everyone was calling me selfish for still being awake because I should go to bed and sleep it off. I just needed to be alone and needed the peace and fresh air.
I walk in to the living room and see gf 1 is chatting with partner, twisting something I told her a while ago. I said a guy from college messaged me that I used to fancy, I ignored him but wanted to try and disconnect my Facebook from my partners phone incase he got jealous and funny with me. Even after deleting the message I was still really worried because he is quite jealous, I was worried about gim getting a message notification. She basicly made out that I wanted to meet him up and cheat. She thought my partner should know the secret she had been keeping to herself.. 😐 5mins later she goes to brother (2) and tries touching him and flirting with the mils brother, everyone saw it and spoke about it the day after. But not as much as how apparantly wanted to cheat on partner.
Eventually I went to bed.
The next day I didn't come downstairs, I didn't eat etc. Not because I didn't want food but because I didn't want to see or be round any of them and going to the kitchen meant I had to do that. Mil came to the room and never apologised but stood there saying.. well I don't appreciate partner, he was playing darts with his brother and it was your turn to check lo. I said yes maybe I should've just gone up but I just needed a break in that moment, i wanted to switch off. Maybe I was wrong for saying it but what b(1) said was disgusting. She goes well partner doesn't get to switch off, apparantly him going out multiple times a week to football and spending all his free time after work isn't time to himself but winding down. That its wrong for me to expect him to give me any money for train tickets to see my friends because I need to fund fun things myself. That its wrong to ask my money to do anything and I should just be happy staying at home and going to the same park with lo. Basicly saying all my labour is for everyone else but all his is for himself and he deserves more respect etc. Trying to give me parent advice, how I should change my routine etc how its my fault me and partner don't spend quality time together because I don't give up lo enough. How I'm the reason partner has worries about me going out with friends because I give him reasons to (I never ever have) and uses what the brothers gf said. That if i have these struggles that I just need to go doctor and get fixed because he pulls his weight and I don't pull mine. That I don't listen to people, everyone's tying to help me and I'm stubborn and won't take anyone's advice etc. How I blame partner for all our issues when its also on me and I need to communicate better, despite me being the one begging for a simple no or yes from him.
Everyone is telling me that it was the drinks and I was in the wrong too by saying the things i did. That I started being aggressive and rude to the gf first, everyone who witnessed how she wouldnt let me say even a word and how she was shouting at me first.. all now said it was me.
That I use my adhd and autism as way to get sympathy and justify being lazy, I just heed go the doctors and sort my head out. That I'm the one who comes across really closed off and blunt when all everyone wants to do is help, I push everyone away. That I'm really closed off and don't agree with everyone trying trying insert themselves other people's relationships is wrong, they are an open family and are only trying to help as they don't want to see us break up.
They go out and fly kites with the kids, I go down to do it with lo. Afterwards brothers gf comes up to me and says I'm sorry for how I said everything last night, but not for what I said. I snapped and started going in on her. She says I lie about him being abusive and I victimise myself, I use all my issues as an excuse to make people feel sorry for me to get away with doing the bare minimum. That if she ever had kids she'd make sure she was working first and I'm a bad partner for haveing a baby before I sorted myself out. That I shouldn't expect partner to have lo to go out, I expect too much from him because he works and I don't do anything.
Yh no. I snapped back and used the times she faked pregnancies to keep brother 1, the times she would cause chaos because he had friends that were girls on Facebook. How she took phycoclogy yet has the audacity to tell me I'm lying about my issues etc. Her nickname is " physco *name: so whenever she spoke I kept saying it. I went.. its not nice when someone won't let u speak is it? And kept doing it until she left me alone. She went in and screamed to everyone about me, how she came to kindly apologise and I was horrible to her.
When we got home I havnt looked at the family or anyone else since. I didn't put down the things they said in full but it was basicly me stood there as all these people watched in agreement as they went in on me and disrespected me as a mum, a person with mental health issues and just as a bloody human. I hate them all. It was genunaly the worse night of my entire life and the day after was just as bad. The way everyone was gaslighting me and trying to get in my head twist things. It's all my pushed under the rug because its just a bad night of drinking. It wasn't just a bad night, not only did they show their true colors and thoughts about me but full on targeted me.
I would love to move and be a single mum, but I can't drive in a place that requires me to do so to get the jobs. (Bus routes are bad where I am) I feel utterly trapped. I'd need a low stimulating job too. It's just shit.
Btw if anyone actually read all this, damn 🤣 I just really needed to get it all off my chest weather it be heard by anyone or not.
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2023.06.08 13:35 PoetryDevil13 I hate this life
I hate that Capitalism forces me to work just so I can study. I hate that it prevents me from learning a skill I actually want to learn because it's too expensive, both in money and energy I need to put into it. Energy that I don't have because I have to work. I hate that this is whats expected. I hate that I can't simply live and enjoy life. The world around me is basically ending, I know I won't get to live anytime soon and by the time I could, the world will be gone. I just want to be able to breathe in peace, watch shows I like, make good food and feed to people I like. I want to bind my own books and tell authors I like how awesome their work is. I want to help fill the shelves of libraries with books and knowledge and humanity. I want to have talks about abstract concepts, philosophy and then still talk about wether the black shirt or the blue one looks better with my jeans. I want to sleep enough. I want to wake up and know the world isn't ending anymore. I hate that to even have a shot at that life I need money. I need a lot of money. And to do that I have to do work. Work that is admittedly quickly learned and shouldn't be this exhausting. I often think about how technology and a UBI could make the job I do absolete today. But it won't because Capitalism. Because it would be cheaper to have me work. Because automation is scary. It's scary because rights now, it would mean no money for the workers who need it. Right now, the fact that I like more artsy stuff has made me feel so sick after signing the job contract that I nearly puked and cried for 2 hours.
I hate this life. I hate that I can't breathe in peace.
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2023.06.08 13:35 ooorla Stay safe today Harford County!
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2023.06.08 13:35 ThrowRA_xikiwag Is this just another "I need space" thing that means nothing? 26f,32m
My girlfriend, now ex, of more than 3 years had a tough time for a couple of years. Too many arguments, too much personal/family stuff happening in our lives. Combined with her diagnosed bipolar and my incessant "giving advice" attitude towards supporting and her codependency...it left her feeling unloved.
A couple of months ago, she went on a trip to see family. This has happened before, but went normally. This time she did make it clear she was leaving for a while and it was to decompress. Life is fickle sometimes, so I accepted that and actually thought it would make sense. Our communication was thorough, but there was a wedge for sure.
I was going to visit, leading up to it conversations were okay. Literally up to almost being near her, she dropped it. Said we shouldn't continue. I was pretty upset. To sum up the last week, we have had conversations. Most of which was me getting very logical explaining the reasons we should work on it. She stuck to her guns, even going so extreme as "We have nothing in common", "the last years have been the worst", etc. I stayed calm, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't say I didn't very persistently try to convince her that we have so much potential and we could make it work with good communication.
Most recent conversation was a bit more calm. Ended with me asking if she would be interested if things changed (me being more loving, basically). She responded with "Let me heal alone and ask me in a while." I said I respect that, wished her luck, and concisely expressed I genuinely want to make it work.
There's more context of course, but these are the high points. We have have never had any instances of betrayal. A couple of months ago she became aware I was likely to propose soon. We had been living with eachother for about 3 years. I know she is/was very grateful I was able to afford us going to a home and place she absolutely adores. She says she doesn't trust me and has a hyperbolic perspective on how bad the bad moments were too. Although her bipolar attitude makes her view lots of things hyperbolically.
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2023.06.08 13:34 dudewhrzmycr Military father just trying to see his kids and needs help
I am military going through a divorce where we live in different states. I have been trying to be amicable by paying $3000 to support the children’s needs. I am about to move to a new house to better accommodate my children’s needs when they visit me, which is going to increase my living costs.
The mother is not allowing me to bring the children to visit me and won’t let me stay in their home (I am the sole name on the lease) after telling me I would be able to previously, which I never got in writing, but it feels like it was a way to string me along). We also discussed me seeing them on the 16th (also didn’t get in writing), but she has now pushed that date back to the 24th, leaving me with only a week. This is going to cause more of a financial burden on me in the near future. I will be going on a month rotation soon, followed by a 9 month rotation next year, so my time with the children for the next few years will be SO limited. I need to cherish ANY time I can get with them.
With no court order, am I in the right to reduce the amount that I give her to supplement these costs? Also, is there anything else I can do to ensure that I get ANY time with my children? My lawyer made it sound like my plan of action wouldn’t be brought in front of the court soon enough as my time to visit is two weeks away and I would probably just end up having to go there and pay to rent another home while visiting.
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2023.06.08 13:33 believeinsteve604 Creative XP
All of a sudden playing in creative doesn't give me any XP anymore and on the last day of the battle pass I'm trying to level up. Don't want to play Battle Royal as it doesn't give nearly as much needed. Don't want to buy levels. Hate there are no more XP challenges other than the daily ones to do. Most milestones are completed. Any advice?
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2023.06.08 13:33 KevinsChili22 24M from Ohio work is slow let’s chat :)
Good morning! Work is gonna be super slow today so come keep me company :)
I’m down to talk about whatever tbh I’m a pretty open book. Also down to play iMessage games if anyone wants? Prepared to get whooped tho ;)
I like to play video games (Xbox), workout, go hiking, hangout with friends and watch tv/movies. Harry Potter and Star Wars are some of my favorites. I’m kinda introverted so a lot of times I prefer to just chill at home lol.
I’m going on an international trip next year so give me recommendations on where to go!
Also, is anyone near or from Ohio? Would be cool to meet local people
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2023.06.08 13:33 Wanderer_2187 Never realized how awkward I was until I saw my own videos
Sure, I could just be overly critical of myself (I have low self-esteem), but I am genuinely convinced that I have super awkward behavior. The way I walk is weird, I can't seem to stand in place for more than 5 seconds, my eyes look in all sorts of directions (I can't keep eye contact), and I blink way too much. This can't be normal, right? The worst part is that I do all these things without realizing it. I'm not even going to ask for advice on how to be less awkward because it's probably not possible for me. I just feel really sorry for every single person I've had a social interaction with because I likely made them uncomfortable by just being near them.
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2023.06.08 13:32 wallyTHEgecko 09 Street Triple suddenly squeeled and then shut off while riding yesterday. Squeels when I attempted to restart. Had to trailer home.... Any possible ideas??
I got my Street Triple with just over 36k miles back in January. Obviously immediately changed the basic fluids and then just got it into the dealership for an official annual service in May. Yesterday, less than 500 miles since the service, I was riding for about 45 minutes, a little highway stuff, a little side-road/neighborhood/mainstreet kinda stuff. All just fine. Happy as can be.
Then while I'm cruising along at maybe 30-35 mph in I think 3rd gear, it just begins squeeling! I pulled the clutch in once I recognized that it was from me and then the oil light and check engine lights came on. I let the clutch out again for just a second and it squeeled again so I pulled the clutch back in and at that point realised the engine was no longer running (while still rolling). So with the clutch in, I clicked it down to neutral and coast my way into parking lot.
I attempted to restart the bike, but it sounded grindy/squeely as it turned over very slowly. In neutral, the bike rolls fine. In gear with the clutch pulled, the bike rolls fine. There's nothing dripping from the bike. Oil level and coolant levels are full-up.
I'm thinking/fearing something in the bottom end near the crank? Does anyone have any insight?
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2023.06.08 13:31 SourcerBot Ukrainians face homelessness, disease risk as floods crest from burst dam
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Published on 2023-06-07 at 23:36, this article is written by viktoriia lakezina and max hunder and published by reuters. (4 minutes) Save 4 minutes of reading with this summary:
KHERSON, Ukraine, June 7 (Reuters) - Ukrainians abandoned inundated homes on Wednesday as floods crested across the south after the destruction of a huge hydroelectric dam on front lines between Russian and Ukrainian forces, with their presidents trading blame for the disaster. Ukraine said the deluge would leave hundreds of thousands of people without access to drinking water, swamp tens of thousands of hectares of agricultural land and turn at least 500,000 hectares deprived of irrigation into "deserts". The Nova Kakhovka dam collapse on Tuesday happened as Ukraine prepares a major counteroffensive against Russia's invasion, likely the war's next major phase. Kyiv said on Wednesday its troops in the east had advanced more than a kilometre around the ruined city of Bakhmut in eastern Ukraine, its most explicit claim of progress since Russia reported the start of the Ukrainian counteroffensive earlier this week. Kyiv said several months ago the dam had been mined by Russian forces that captured it early in their 15-month-old invasion, and has suggested Moscow blew it up to try to prevent Ukrainian forces crossing the Dnipro in their counteroffensive. Keep reading with 3 related articles: Major dam near Kherson blown up ‘by Russia’ sparking floods and putting nuclear power plant at risk
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2023.06.08 13:30 readingrachelx Housewife highlights/Daily shit talk - June 8th, 2023
ORANGE COUNTY NEW JERSEY ATLANTA NEW YORK BEVERLY HILLS BRAVO DURBAN Links to this week's episode discussion posts:
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